Adam and I talk about getting married ALL the time. And there is not a single thing I would love more than to marry that man and leave Colorado for Virginia so I could be with him. Thing is, we’re 19, and I’m not bashing on young marriages, but part of me says that’s too young for me to be getting married. And on top of that, I’m afraid if I quit school to move to Virginia and get married I’d never go back to school and get my degree, and I made a promise to myself to finish school as soon as possible. I hate being here when he’s there and we only get to see each other 2-3 times a year if we’re lucky. I’m torn between doing what would make me happy, going to live with him and becoming his wife, and staying here to fulfill the promise I made to myself, even though it doesn’t necessarily make me happy.
I just wish I lived closer so it wouldn’t be so hard to see him more often. I miss my sailor and I’d do just about anything to see him right now.